Today, I’m finally giving up. I’m excited for the future, but I’m giving up control of it. 

This past week, I realized how much I’m still holding on to control. I got frustrated because some of my fundraising plans were thwarted. I’m so glad they were. It made me realize how much I was relying on those plans for provision. 

This isn’t to say that I won’t be doing any fundraising for my stateside missions work. I am definitely going to do that. I’m also working this month and possibly once I get to Georgia. 

I’m just letting go…Letting go of expectations, of worry, of doing the numbers every night before I go to bed to make sure if I do this or that, then I should be able to get enough to do the things God’s called me to do. 

I’m not going to rely on plans or people, jobs or fundraising. Just God. 

I’m going to trust Him. He’s got it all under control. He will provide where He calls.

He is good.                             

ahhh, it feels so much better to let Him have it. i’m so glad He’s in control.