[re]Entry – I’m Not a Super Christian Yet?

I’m pretty pumped. Tomorrow morning, I’m hopping on a plane to Atlanta. After chilling in the airport for a bit, I will be picked up by the beautiful Melissa Diehl and meet back up with a few Y Squaders to head to Toccoa Falls College to serve 300+ future World Racers at the largest EVER WR training camp. [Then I’m heading to Gainsville for Project Searchlight, but that’s a whole other blog :)] As I began packing today and thinking of things I might need to pick up at the store, memories came back of when I was getting ready to go to my very own training camp last year (May 2011). It’s crazy how time flies….Now I’m a World Race Alumni, serving at a training camp. 

I can’t wait to see these future World Racers. They have NO IDEA what they’re getting themselves into, but they’re about to step into an incredible journey that you can only truly understand once you’ve been through it.

To be honest, I’ve been pretty bummed since I’ve been home. I’ve been disconnect from my family, Team SCOTT (toot toot!)…yeah we communicate, but it’s not the same as being with them 24/7 in the flesh (living in community)! I’ve also been bummed because I didn’t come home who I thought I would be… 
 

Yes. I secretly thought that going through the Race, I would morph and come back a Super Christian. Well, here I am and no, I’m not. The truth is I’ve had my eyes on God and myself instead of just God for far too long. I’ve been concentrating on what was missing in our relationship, what I was doing wrong instead of just being with Him, even if that means I’m still a mess. I’ve lacked in showing myself some of the grace that He’s already given me. I’m so glad that God still loves us in our mess and will use us despite the fact that we don’t and never will “have it all together.”

So today I decided to stop thinking about myself for a change…And that’s what got me so super pumped about training camp! Over the next week, I get to SERVE other people, lift them up and cover them in prayer…even though I don’t have it all together. God is GOOOOD!! 

I’m coming from a place of brokenness, but what perfect timing. I’m going from a place of self-seeking and into a place of reconciliation and servanthood. Beautiful. 

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion…” Philippians 1:6